In Contemplation

Yesterday was not my best day. Scratch that. Yesterday I was not at my best.

See, part of the reality of working from home is sometimes very little work gets done.

Just as you sit down to work, a family member or neighbor or friend may drop by or call, just to talk…some days, this is okay, the ‘f’ in freelance is also for flexible, right?…some days you’re behind on everything with new stuff piling up and feeling the stress of it as you try to FOCUS…and at every turn the knock on the door, the ringing phone, the phone ringing again …and again and again and again, the volume of interruptions, the life happening around you and insisting on pulling you into it feels like being yanked out of a dream and then being unable to pick back up the thread of that dream …after you step out to engage in whatever way you’re expected to engage only to have it all start over again ….it becomes harder and harder to remember where you were, like the book mark’s been carelessly dropped from the book and you just can’t find your place. Not good for writing, not good for getting stuff done. On a day when your computer decides to rebel, slowing you even more, and your attempts to communicate fail, like majorly fail, like Mount Soufriere erupting fail…the day’s a bust and everything you didn’t get done today and the backlog of stuff stretching back a couple of weeks, and today’s stuff is all there waiting for you.

And yesterday has become today.

And the lessons you carry over include …

Losing your cool solves absolutely nothing but it does make you look like a fool, surrender whatever high ground you might have had, and create bruised feelings that may take a while to heal, and you have to believe they will heal.

Sometimes you just can’t fight the day. Focus is important but each day has its own rhythm and it only gets worse, that day, if you try to fight it.

You can’t control what happens … all you can control really is how you react to it.

Aw, screw it….

Truthfully, you have no grand insights… just a resolve to put yesterday behind you, look today in the eye and do the best you can.

This lady deep in contemplation is the perfect fit for these musings. She's my latest art acquisition courtesy of a trade exchange with the artist,  Edison Liburd.

This lady deep in contemplation is the perfect fit for these musings. She’s my latest art acquisition courtesy of a trade exchange with the artist, Edison Liburd.

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